I'm not sure I'm coming out...

Is it just me or does the idea of coming out of lockdown (whilst an absolute dream and something I’m desperate to do) sound to god to be true?! When we first went into this last year I was h hopefully it would only be a few weeks, a few months, a bit longer. But as time went on that hope got knocked more and more times and now I’ve stopped feeling hopeful. This is worrying. I’m naturally a problem solver, I wouldn’t call myself an optimist but I am someone who refused to wallow in self pity and likes to find solutions. The fact that part of me is refusing to believe that this could be beating an end is not like me at all.

It made me read around a bit about lockdown and the pandemic and how is affected people mentally, both whilst it’s going on and potentially long term. I read a really interesting article on how the long term ‘ground hog day’ affect of our situation has lead to an impact on memory, attention and focus and how this could actually continue to be an issue even after ‘normality’ returns. I can’t find the article now out of cite it, if I can I’ll come back and update.

Home working and remote teams have all become more standard and there’s a possibility that some companies won’t see the need to return to traditional office based set ups... I think normal is going to be very different when it comes and I think that’s part of the reason I’m struggling to look forward. I’m worried about what that future looks like so it’s hard to plan for it.

But you know what? I don’t think that’s a bad thing. For now I’m taking everyday as it comes and not looking too far ahead and that suits me just fine so I don’t think that if you’re feeling the same you should worry too much, just let life unfold and when it does we’ll get back to actually living it instead of just getting by.